... is such a quitter.  I gave him an ultimatum about being a referee at the America's Youth Outreach Programs martial arts tournament.  He has to train in class and learn all of his Taegeuk forms if he wants to continue being a referee,  How can he judge black belt level forms if he doesn't know his poom level forms himself.  

If this sounds confusing it's because I was lending him a black belt to work as a referee at the tournament.  But my conscious caught up with me at the last tournament when he was judging the black belt forms division.  

So the ultimatum was that he needs to train in class, under me, learn his forms, and then I would continue to take him into the tournaments and let him work as a referee.  

What does he do?  He comes in for the weeks that I was have my classes spar and when I switched the focus to forms... he did one class and then stopped coming.  

Now he finalizes that he won't referee anymore.  Quitter... just because it requires learning his forms he now doesn't want to referee anymore.  The easy way out.

It sounds like I'm being harsh but his reasons aren't believable.  I won't type them out here but they were weak reasons.  Man... this will start a habit of quitting whenever something gets too hard... or involves boring work.  Boring work and in learning forms... as an example.

Time to sleep.

Sitting here in a Starbucks I started thinking... well about how I think now compared to my past.  We as human beings will either slowly change our thought process as we age or there will be some traumatic event(s) that will force a faster change in how we think.  I slowly changed.  My high school days to now 12 years later.  From always listening to love songs (by myself), playing rap songs really loud because I had to always have a "bumping" sound system in my vehicle, wishing to be with the popular girl in school, being the wallflower, having an almost impenetrable shell around me, to now.  A 2 time heartbreak that helped me get the courage to break out my shell, becoming a Taekwondo instructor in charge of teaching the young and old, shying away from the rap songs I would play a lot of and now enjoying piano sonatas, and just breaking out of the shell I once had.  

Is thinking this way because of a mid-life crisis?  Naw... I don't think so.  Even though this year in September I'll be turning 30, I'm still alive.  I still have the chance to find my lifetime partner, get a great job with a great income, win 1st place in a Taekwondo tournament, etc.

My thinking had gone from superficial and trivial thoughts to what I see as deeper longer lasting thoughts.  I want to better myself to achieve the balance between mind, body, and soul that I wish for.  I joined 24 Hour Fitness.  I started to teach my students more of how to think in life rather than just focus on the physical in Taekwondo.  

It's hard for me to put what I'm truly thinking into words right now.  I'm hoping later it'll hit me and I'll post it then.  Until then...

Good afternoon!

Today my afternoon into the evening was dedicated to Final Fantasy XIII.  I'm in chapter 11 trying to accomplish all of the Cie'th missions.  After I'm done here I'm going to go back and play more Final Fantasy XIII.

Taekwondo has been getting better.  Although I've been putting aside my own training, my students have been responding well to the new material I've thrown at them.  Due to the upcoming tournament on the 13th I'll keep to myself what the new material is so that my students can surprise their competitors and hopefully sweep ALL of the divisions.

Longboarding is a great hobby for me.  It gives me an excellent reason to go out and cruise the city streets.  So far my favorite has been touring around Coronado Island, especially when passing by the beach.  All of those pretty women in their skimpy outfits and bikinis.  It makes touring the island very much worth the trip.  At the same time it's an enjoyable cardiovascular workout as well as a leg strengthening exercise.  Still... the pretty women... oh yeah.

Yu-Gi-Oh! is something that I'll never get tired of.  I have a fast Elemental Hero Absolute Hero deck that wins me duels.  To those that know me yes... I have put aside my love of the Dark Magician, Dark Magician Girl, and spellcasters deck.  Don't worry I'm still working on improving that deck and waiting for when the right set of support cards come out.

Airsoft... I've been thinking about a reduction of my arsenal.  Something along the lines of just a dedicated sniper rifle, a SMG, and my Glock pistol.  The rest I'll sell and try to get some of my money back.  It's an idea for now.

My Tamiya TT-01 has been upgraded as far as I can make it.  It's a shame that I'm the only one in my scattered circles of friends that is interested in rc cars.  There's not much of a showing of rc cars in San Diego.  Along with airsoft and Taekwondo, all of the BIG competitions and/or events are in L.A.  Anyway there's just no interest for rc cars with the people I hang out with.  Still... I will retain my love for that hobby and will find more ways to keep the love alive.

That's my life thus far.  No real big events.  Now if only I could win the Lotto.

Good night.